Let go. Let God.

Let go Let God

A summary of the following passage:

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;  and lean not until thine own understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Let go Let God…..a phrase that has been on my mind for well over a year.  When it came to me, I swore to myself that if I ever got brave, that that would be my first tattoo.

And so it was….on April 18th.

wrist tattoo

I actually thought I had come up with something original…at least somewhat original, which is really hard to do these days.  Until, that is, when the appointment was booked and a friend shared photos of tattoos on Pinterest that shared the same words.  In addition, she shared a tattoo someone we mutually knew had gotten, which was slightly different;  however, the words were the same, just with “and” in-between.

For me, I wanted it simple and to the point – no extras, no fancy design;  rather, just a daily reminder where I could see it.

I have blogged before about making writing for this blog a priority and I have failed time and time again.  I’m honestly still working through my own mindset as to why that is.  This blog was started from a place in my heart that bloomed from some really dark days.  Despite my best intentions, regularly writing for this blog is a challenge.

Am I sometimes questioning myself – what’s the use?  Yes.   I know one person reads what I write at least sometimes (THANK YOU, subscriber).  What if I am actually successful with this blog?  Am I ready for that?  Do I really want success?  I think I repel it like oil repels water, honestly.  My lack of commitment would certainly substantiate that.  But why is this?  And why do I let anything stop me, including a hiccup in the road of life, if I feel it to be so important to me?  I have yet to discover the true answer to that.

What I have come to realize is that when I do hit a snag in life – when the emotional roller-coaster parks in my mind, when I get so wrapped up and consumed by things beyond my control, my entire self is affected negatively.

I tend to go down deep into the rabbit hole of emotion and find it difficult to focus, to make the things I enjoy a priority, and to give my best to my family.

“Let go Let God” is about so much more than just a religious phrase to read/hear than casually go about my day like many of us often do with positivity quotes we come across on social media.  These words have become a mantra for my life.

Do not rely on my own understanding, but rather trust and acknowledge Him and I will never be alone.  Let go of what is beyond my control and leave the rest to Him.

What does this have to do with this blog?  My absence came about from going through some personal issues.  I didn’t feel right sharing how people can live their best lives when I’m personally struggling in my own.  Also, during this time, I got ill – likely due to the emotional stress I was putting myself through.  That went on for nearly six weeks.  I firmly believe in the mind-body connection.  So much of the disease we have today has a lot to do with our state of mind.  I really believe that.

I am much better now and have been getting back to incorporating more of the things I enjoy (journaling, guitar, exercise, regular yoga practice) into my life.

Life is hard.  There is no rule book on parenting, relationships, marriage, and career.  There will be times we feel as though we are suffocating, that life itself is one challenge after another.  And it really can and will feel that way at times.

As a society we seek out relief…a way to decompress.  Some react to personal drama/turmoil more positively than others.  What I found I personally do is neglect myself and my own well-being.  And these are the times where I need to focus my energy even more on the things I enjoy – shift my own mindset.  I don’t turn to things outside of myself that are negative in order to rid myself of my own frustration, sadness or what have you.  Rather, I internalize my emotion and I dwell on the feelings of the situation.  Which isn’t any better….not for me or those I love.  Either we must accept things as they are and truly move on or deal with them head-on.  Until we do one or the other, we sacrifice our own well-being.

Now, however, I can glimpse at my wrist and….oh yeah….there’s nothing in this life I need to understand perfectly.  Rather, live day by day in perfect understanding that I am not alone.

Shift focus.  Reconnect to your inner-self.  Embrace where you are today.  Grow in knowing you are wiser than you were yesterday.  Then let go and leave the rest to Him.

Love and peace to you.  Namaste!

 

 

About Victoria

Hi there! I'm Victoria: wife & mother of three with one pooch living in rural ND. I am a professional photographer turned writer, published author, and side-hustle entrepreneur. I dream of vacationing in Fiji and seeing Matchbox Twenty live (among other things). I firmly believe everything is "figureoutable," and if it doesn't challenge you - it doesn't change you. I also looooooooove coffee. A lot. :D

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